As you can tell I took a break and haven't been around to ype much.....the well just ran dry but my little FB Group has introduced a challenge to me....."11 Things to Write about before the New Year." I figure I am on vacation of traveling to nowhere, OH for a couple days....why not...maybe it will start my mojo....#leggo
I have often thought about if I am what I dreamed as a kid - you know the HBCU graduate, sorority (skeewee) sweetheart with a husband, loving family, 2 kids, a custom built home and a hefty nest egg proving we are financially responsible. HERE.I.AM...none of those things. My aunt says, "HE has a funny sense of humor." *HE being the big man upstairs, you know, the BIG CHEESE*
HA.
It kind of makes me sad to think I am none of what I dreamt, but everything I am meant to be.
So what if I am still a "first time freshman" when I attempt to get A degree at this point (an associates would make me smile).
So what if Ive loved the "wrong men"
So what if I did something I regret...
So what if I moved to IL for a guy who didn't love me as much as he loved me...
So what if I still have issues of insecurity and totally skeptical of everything
So - the-fuck-what I have fucking "issues" or "regrets" and a can of "what ifs" for the remainder of this life....
I think the younger me would admire who I am today.
Growing up I admired and gravitated toward women who showed strength and had a story to tell me. (Somewhere I think this was HIS intervention when life began in D.C. when I look back on this as I type. There have been many women in my life who "adopted" and showed me things I apply to my own life today). Sure there are plenty of imperfections and things I need to work on about my character and disciplines - What super hero was ever perfect.....none.
Instead of frowing and scratching my head further I have some things in my life worthy of gratitude and I appreciate the journey. Confidence(EHHH) being #1 and #3 being the comfort of my home I have decorated lol - #simple
Today I am a woman with a story to tell - I know as a kid I would be very proud and even perhaps admired....ME
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